The Fast and Nietzche's Hypothesis

Original creation date: 28 July 2007, after the beach

THE FAST

the fast--
sometimes people ask me why i did the fast.
and i think
there are a number of reasons.
and in the first place
the fast felt weird,
but i'm glad i did it
because i learned some new things.
and learning is good.
i learned that i don't have the best reaction to dairy, for example,
and that fruit is actually a very good snack.
last time i did it,
i learned that soda really sucks if you're fasting,
and that's what it probably really tastes like, but we're so used to it
we don't realise that.
day one was sunday, supposably: i went to the docks and ate shrimp.
but i ate little else, and felt okay at the end of the day.
i learned that indeed beans make you f... arty.
day two was the real beginning, monday,
and julie wasnt there,
and i ate salad and fruit and it was good.
day three was the test,
and julie was there,
and i ate salad and fruit and julie argued with me about it,
which was weird,
but it was still okay.
day four was wednesday, hump day,
and it was okay at the beginning but i felt wearier and wearier
as the day drew on,
and i ate very little, not a full meal for lunch, as i define full meals.
or used to at least.
and that day i did alot of physical work, too,
a lot of walking.
which normally would of been fine, but my body was starting to complain.
from all this walking, i developed a sort of pain in the leg
the tiredness soreness of gyms.
and thursday was the real beginning of the strict water fast,
which did not go as expected.
i was extremely tired all day, because i was moving to a new room
in the morning.
even so, i went to see ratatouille.
i felt extremely tired, but it was all the more memorable because of that.
it was like a more intense form of living.
everything is experienced that much more intensely.
it's not really the hunger, i think;
it's the tiredness.
i can deal with the hunger okay, i have a lot of willpower in that regard;
but the tiredness defeated me eventually.
and boy. i was tired.
and i ate some bread that night
and the next day, friday,
did not do anything, just lie in bed really, and i was like
this is ridiculous, i need to eat or im just gonna feel tired
all the time.
which would suck.
so i started eating, first the fruit; then i moved on to some carrots
with ranch dressing, which has dairy;
and i realised that yes, dairy sort of irritates;
so it's a trade-off between yummyness and pain, really;
and then i ate some more fruit
and some reprocheta, with cheese.
which is also dairy. see above.
finally,
today,
i mostly broke the fast,
very slowly and deliberately
with some potato chips and some pizza.
lol. like.. the unhealthiest shit possible.
anyway, feel fine.
next up some fruit, apple and pear, probly
the nectarines arent too good.
bastards.
tomorrow probably some normalization
within reason, obviously.
=)

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WHAT THE WORLD NEEDS NOW

what the world needs is more rihannas.
black people and asian people need to start interacting more.
well that, and more alicia keyses.
and giuliano palmas, i guess.
um.. and.. yeah.

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GOD IS DEAD

so, nietzche is fun.
god is dead, he says,
because we have killed him.
the argument is rather convoluted, even though it is actually quite straightforward, so bear with me. i think it goes something like, people's herd instinct made individuality undesirable both because it was not always what was best for the herd and because being an individual is actually a painful and undesirable experience when one is used to the herd and accepts herd morality without question. therefore, whenever people wanted to justify individual behaviour and others demanded an explanation, he would just say oh it is not me that says it is so, but a god that speaks through me. thus was born theism and thus polytheism. the jewish tradition did away with polytheism and thus created a common morality once again in the religious area, and so men were not able to explain away their individual creative impulses through deities anymore as it was a sin and punishable by death. the judeo-christian tradition begot the creation of science, which is not really much more than a better description of the world, but does not really explain anything. science descrobe the world in better, more predictable patterns than theism, and thus the need for theism was expired, so to speak. by describing the world in ways easier for the human brain to predict, theism was at last no longer necessary and man was free of having to worship nature with deities. so, basically, god is dead. hmm.

in fact, everything is dead. what we call 'living' is just a very rare type of dead stuff.

yeah, nietzche is kind of a mindjob.

Important passages:
I: 1-14,24,29-31,33,37-56
III: 108-153